Basically Garando's Toya. I draw him the most out of everyone. No... no it's not really Toya. He's out of character, he's not really canon Toya. Obviously. But it's how i ended up drawing him due to how i was feeling. You do that too, don't you? You draw to express yourself. I drew him sad to express myself. I just can't draw him normally anymore. Why should i draw him happy when i'm not happy myself? when im feeling so lonely?

Appearance

Purple sweatshirt... I also usually roll up the sleeves, i forgot to draw that. The sweatshirt idea comes from his hollow focus event untrained card displayed on the left, i just really liked how he looked without the gray.. sweatshirt..? wait is the purple thing a hoodie because it has a hood... i think im stupid. anyway. I also draw his jeans in a different way than they actually are... I added way more rips in his jeans because i think it looks really nice, hehe...
Half naked Toya... I usually draw him like that when I want him to look more crazy or just straight up weak and vulnerable.

The thought behind my art?

By the way... the colors i use never really matter or mean anything. have you seen my artstyle? messy, careless lineart, coloring is always escaping the lines and there are anatomical mistakes i don't even bother fixing. I just draw what looks good. My art rarely has intent behind it or some deeper thought. You're never getting deep lore about any of my drawings. "i miss sweetie so much, i'll go draw", "how dare this stranger look at me the wrong way? i want them deaad. ill go draw", "my voice was raspy when i told the bus driver goodbye and embarrassed myself, i want to cut my ankles. ill go draw" is the actual thought behind my art

Face

Earphones

Have you noticed these?
I very often fall asleep with my phone, which has earphones plugged in. blue sony wired earphones to be specific. One day i just woke up with the earphones wrapped around my neck... and then it clicked. it's sexy. So i started drawing toya with them around his neck as an accessory whenever i feel like it. a little tug and you're strangling toya. vulnerable, isn't he? he trusts that you won't do it, but nothing is stopping you from doing it either, right?

Skeletal ribcage

This idea came to me last summer. Now that i got reminded of the state i was in last summer, i feel sick. Everything went downhill for me last May i think? and it never went away. whatever shut the fuck up garando.
I developed this weird fascination of skeletons and blood. i ended up making it one of my toya's features... sometimes i draw him with it, sometimes i don't. notice how he only has a heart and no other organs? personally, i find the idea of human bodies having some pieces of living pumping things disgusting. intestines are disgusting. why am i not just a skeleton with a heart?
anyway, this actually came from my miku i made back in uhhhh idk. a few years ago. i think she's in one of my sketchbook tour vids but i couldn't find it. basically i listened to gomenne gomenne so many times i kept drawing crazy miku and then i went "ohhhh ribcage cool, blood nice because song sad" and ended up with miku with her clothes torn, shirt open and her torso open with just ribs and red. i dont think i drew a heart there

Toya is not "one", is he?

i love the idea of multiple Toyas. i have put canon Toya with Garando's Toya together a few times now. sometimes it's just another Toya, a sad and scared Toya. this has to do with my Toya having mood swings all the time. like me. sometimes i just give up, sometimes i just feel so violent and homicidal, sometimes im just FUCKING SAD and afraid. yeah sometimes its just one toya, sometimes these moods split into multiple beings. be careful or they'll start killing eachother!!!!

That is not BDSM...

ignore the centipede. i just felt like adding insects, okay?! and a little bit of saliva, okay?!?!?! that's not even the point! blindfold. why? because. garando feels blind. garando can't see whats happening. garando wants to know, but it's like secrets are being kept from garando. garando really hates it

BONUS: Winter fit

i only said bonus because this isn't even interesting. it's based on my winter fit because i liked it very much... thick black heavy coat with a turtle neck, big scarf and jeans through which the cold easily gets to my legs. winter this year was really something... i have grown to despise the way from the bus stop to my school. it was really cold and i couldn't go faster because i get like 4 hours of sleep on weekdays and then sleep on the bus omw to school and back home